English is a language of concreteness. To be explicit in our expression of self. Japanese is a language of the soul. To be vague. To just feel and say how we feel without making a statement. And to own the two forms of reality has been my path. To accept two contradicting truths brings light to the possibility of a third point - the balance. This has been the conquest of my life.
While we live an outer reality, a totally separate one exists on the inner planes. This dive into inner reality brought me to think about life and metaphorical death and life again in light of metaphorical death. Death is the void. Ceasing to be who we are externally for we never cease to be. Death is part of life. Only when we fail to feel our true nature is when we fall short of life. Life is a venture. A challenge. And a place for taking conscious risks and making lots and lots of mistakes. Life energy is very easy to recognize but not always easy to access. It's the bubbly feeling that is nostalgic of euphoric states we felt as a youth, but death is more subtle. It creeps in on us subconsciously and if ignored can spend years eating away at our psyche until there is very little of us left. That is a frozen state of living. And to stop this creative process is when we've given in to a routine that doesn't speak to our souls. It is when we have not allowed death to help us.
Soul work is not meant for the ego - it is tough core-issue facing work. It calls to us time to time but only those who are ready to face death can change. It requires conscious attention to fear. Blocking out time and creating space to really pick up its call. We are so prone not to fail that we fail to see death in its face - and that can be the ultimate mistake. Facing death is also to face fear and come back with the wisdom of the illusion it was trying to show you. Life wants us to step more into the unknown and walk right down the path of what our younger consciousness would never do, never considered we could, or should, or that we can. Death is parting with fearful role playing and allowing the true self to emerge.
Death is not to be feared but embraced. Death is rest and liberation. Death is letting go of what no longer is working, letting grace touch our lives. There is life beyond metaphorical death, after we die the old self. It is to be reborn, allowing the new you to emerge. It can take weeks, months or even longer. The ego desires to keep you in a subconscious death. To keep you alive only as much as you can continue the routine, but death itself is the truth. Death will tell you what is no longer true, and the truth when accessed is loving. Death is telling you to live more fully by letting go of what is no longer working. It is a wise teacher with startling treasures that have been ignored for way too long.
Authenticity challenges us at the core of our very being to dive into an abyss deeper than we knew existed. A meeting with death will be called for. It's about getting out of our own ways, befriending the spirit of death, and embracing her wisdom. We gain by finding our true ways of life. Death is such a scary idea that we distract ourselves with lots of work and activities that speak to our busy minds and not our souls, but it is more peaceful to to remove ourselves from denial, accept death, and get back on track with our true lives.
Creativity is deep longing and desire to live, the life beyond the metaphorical death, and a need for lots and lots of void space. Gradually allow a new self to emerge from the dry cracks where your old mindset is willing to break away. Spend time retrieving treasures from shipwrecked dreams, undoing years of conditioning, in random bursts of wanderings. As you let go, a new self emerges who is so much more beautiful than who you were before.
I had a vision of a place which would be a haven to explore the inner abyss and to make sense of it all. Younique You became the container to seek forms of excavating the collective truth from our shipwrecks and putting the pieces together. My role as teacher, alchemist, and seer is coming more to the forefront. I see people needing a safe place to share their pain, because we want answers to why we are feeling this way. I tend to shipwrecks. I save the dead. When people have tried everything within their reach, they turn inward and they are ready to work with me. When people are ready to see themselves they come to work with me.
I hope 2016 is unfolding beautifully for all of you and wishing you lots of grace.